Sexual Vitality
I recently ran an experiment with myself self to see what would happen, if anything, if I stopped doing my Jade Egg practice. For the last 28 days, I still meditated every morning but didn't follow through with my manipulations and then my egg practice. I'd like to share with you what I discovered.
First and for most, I literally have had no sex drive, no interest in sex, no interest in connecting with my husband, nothing. Life took on this mundane existence for me and my relationship. I felt frumpy, middle aged and had no energy or vitality. Life just seemed to float along with no real excitement or luster. I began to see what all the women before me as gone through. Their was a sadness their, an empty feeling that I tried so hard not to notice.
Each night when I finally made it into bed, I either just fell asleep, read a book or requested to watch a movie to entertain myself. I had no interest in doing the things that my husband and I normally do together. It began to feel like we were roommates, sharing a bed but not sharing each other. I suddenly realized what it felt like to be a middle aged women in a long term relationship in America.
A more interesting point to mention was how disconnected I have felt from myself, from my husband and from God. I actually got sick last week for the first time in probably 14 years. As I laid there in absolute agony, I looked at where I was out of aliment with myself. Where did I step off the path and end up here? Being sick gave me great perspective about my life and the choices that I made up unto that point and the changes that I needed t put in to be back on my path.
Then, as I sat in meditation this morning, it became to clear to me that I wanted my life back. I wanted to feel sexual, alive and full of vitality. I typically exude a lot of sexual energy, and I notice the effect it has on others. I wanted that back, it has become part of me and I felt lost without it. I wanted to crave being with my husband, to connect with him in a way I could not do otherwise. Spend time in his arms, sharing our energy together.
I want to present to you what is possible for your life and relationship. Have you ever sat in bed and thought about when you first got together with your partner and remember the crazy sex you had? Do you miss it? It's still right there for you to experience. No need to take any pills or creams. Just by doing sexual exercises (Yin lifting for men and Jade Egg for women) keeping that part of your body toned and strong, you can enjoy your partner for years to come. Because what is a relationship without sex?
First and for most, I literally have had no sex drive, no interest in sex, no interest in connecting with my husband, nothing. Life took on this mundane existence for me and my relationship. I felt frumpy, middle aged and had no energy or vitality. Life just seemed to float along with no real excitement or luster. I began to see what all the women before me as gone through. Their was a sadness their, an empty feeling that I tried so hard not to notice.
Each night when I finally made it into bed, I either just fell asleep, read a book or requested to watch a movie to entertain myself. I had no interest in doing the things that my husband and I normally do together. It began to feel like we were roommates, sharing a bed but not sharing each other. I suddenly realized what it felt like to be a middle aged women in a long term relationship in America.
A more interesting point to mention was how disconnected I have felt from myself, from my husband and from God. I actually got sick last week for the first time in probably 14 years. As I laid there in absolute agony, I looked at where I was out of aliment with myself. Where did I step off the path and end up here? Being sick gave me great perspective about my life and the choices that I made up unto that point and the changes that I needed t put in to be back on my path.
Then, as I sat in meditation this morning, it became to clear to me that I wanted my life back. I wanted to feel sexual, alive and full of vitality. I typically exude a lot of sexual energy, and I notice the effect it has on others. I wanted that back, it has become part of me and I felt lost without it. I wanted to crave being with my husband, to connect with him in a way I could not do otherwise. Spend time in his arms, sharing our energy together.
I want to present to you what is possible for your life and relationship. Have you ever sat in bed and thought about when you first got together with your partner and remember the crazy sex you had? Do you miss it? It's still right there for you to experience. No need to take any pills or creams. Just by doing sexual exercises (Yin lifting for men and Jade Egg for women) keeping that part of your body toned and strong, you can enjoy your partner for years to come. Because what is a relationship without sex?
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